thanks...

Today is Thanksgiving. I know it's kinda cliche to think about all the things you're thankful for, but I never really used to think about that stuff. I guess you could say that I'm taking things for granted. I don't know I've just been thinking about a lot of stuff lately and been really stressed about it. I mean this last year things change a lot. For the most part the change has been good I guess. But there was some change, especially with certain people that happened that I didn't like because I wish things stayed the same with them. But not just with how things were/are but I think I've changed more as a person. I guess it was to keep up with the pace at which everything was changing. Getting back to my original post, I guess I'm really thankful that I managed to somehow keep myself together to get through some of the stuff I did. I'm thankful that when I did breakdown it wasn't as fatal as it could have, or maybe should have been... the one time I almost died of alcohol poisoning. I'm thankful to God or whatever supreme being is up there that I didn't drink anymore than I did because I wouldn't be typing this right now had I had more to drink. I'm thankful for the friends that helped me that night. If it wasn't for them the screwed up, careless, and depressed mindset I was in around that time would have gotten the better of me and that would have lead to a worse scenario than what already happened that day.

I'm thankful for finally deciding to take charge in my life and do what I want to do. One of the big thing that I decided I wanted to do was pledge to join a fraternity. I can honestly say that is was one of, if not, the best decisions I've ever made. It has definitely changed who I am, and for the better. Doing this was so important because it's the first step in becoming who I am.

I'm thankful for the friends who have been there in my life, with out them I don't know where I'd be without them. I'm thankful for all the new people I've met in these recent months. I've met a lot of people who changed my out look on life. I'm also thankful for the things that could have been, but never did. In the end I guess it helped me realize that some things aren't meant to be, and maybe I'm better off that way.

I know this post is a little more deep, It's just the kind of deep mind set I've been in going through the daily struggle of figuring out who I really am.