I know how Elmer Fudd felt during open season

I was watching How I Met Your Mother the other day, and they brought up something that I found very interesting. It's strange because I don't usually look for any deep meanings in a sitcoms. Anyway the premise of the show was around this picture...





I have seen this picture before, it's a common optical illusion. It raised an interesting point. you could look at this picture all day for months and think it's a rabbit... but one day you look at it an you see a duck. They went into an argument on which was good and which was bad, they concluded that rabbit was bad. They went on to talk about the things in their lives that are "rabbits", the people they were chasing after that weren't right for them. It got me thinking

This idea of "chasing rabbits". It's a funny coincidence that this episode came on around the same time the new Alice in Wonderland came out. which mad me wonder about all the so-called "rabbits" we all chase. I mean if the "rabbits" are the things that aren't desirable to us, then why chase them. The whole idea seems absurd. Sometimes we can't help it. Speaking for myself I tend to get sucked into this that aren't always the best for me. Also I have a tendency to want things I can't have and that also keeps me interested in whatever I am chasing. Ideally it's not the best thing for me if I want to be happy, but I don't think that it's always harmful. I mean going after something gives you motivation. And as long as you know that what you're going after might be a waste of time, you should end the chase, any time after that is wasted.


This doesn't mean I don't have "ducks" I'm after. I can think of the one major duck I've been in pursuit of. How do we know what a duck is? Well, to me.... a duck is the thing that is the best for us. The person that makes us happy. The person that we enjoy being around, and when we're around them we're happy. The duck will do things to keep us happy. the duck is what is always on your mind, and never leaves it. It's what you don't want to stop thinking about. The duck is what you connect with and complements you. You never get tired of duck. Duck is what's always there for you when things get overwhelming and you need it there. Duck is even there when you don't need it, because it just wants to spend time with you.

The thing is no one is really sure what they are dealing with at first. Is the person a duck or a rabbit? I mean odds are it's gonna take a while to figure that out, so there is always risk of time being wasted, but I think that is only true when dealing with a rabbit. When you find the duck all that time before just makes it all worth while. What I try to do, as we all should, is use the talents and good things about us as "duck feed" so we can find that duck we are looking for in this giant pond we call a world. To "get our ducks in a row" so to speak.

One of the most painful things for me is when a friend is in some kind of pain. Rather it be physical or mental, the thought of knowing my friend is hurting is awful to say the least. What makes it even worse for me is knowing I can't do a thing about it. It kills me to be that powerless and sit idly by as a close one suffers. I'm the kind of person who is always putting others in front of me. It's one of the only reason I still actually go to church, to pray for my friends any others, because honestly, I could really care less what happens to me. I also think that's why I don't have that many friends, it's so I can take extreme care of the ones I have. I fuckin love my friends, they have made my life and I am forever in debut to them for that. But in return for that I'd take a bullet for all my friends. Sometime things get tough and it makes it hard for everyone. It's those times where it's where you need friends. I like to always be there for my friends. If you're reading this right now odds are you are one of my closer friends who actually know I started a blog. And I just want my friends to know that I'll be here for you until the end. If you ever feel overwhelmed or having a rough time, just let me know and I'll be there for you to help you with anything you need, never hesitate to ask. Don't ever feel like you're alone. I'm always here for you, don't ever forget that.

-Markus


"There is no greater love than to lay down one's life for one's friends"
-John 15:13

"I think I simply love people too much, so much that it makes me feel too fucking sad."
-Kurt Cobain

the girl next door

"Moral fiber...so, what is moral fiber? I mean, it's funny, cause I used to think it was always telling the truth, doing good deeds...basically being a fucking Boy Scout. But lately I've been seeing it differently. Now I think moral fiber is about finding that one thing you really care about. That one special thing that means more to you than anything else in the world. And when you find her, you fight for her. You risk it all. You put her in front of everything--your future, your life, all of it. And maybe the stuff you do to help her isn't so clean; you know what--it doesn't matter. Because in your heart, you know that the juice is worth the squeeze. That's what moral fiber's all about."

Feeling Like Pluto...

For some reason people seem to care a lot about fitting in. I never got it. Actually, I think I might get why some people try to fit in. The answer dawned on me this afternoon. I was in the library with a group of friends when it hit me. I was the only one in that group that didn't belong to the greek system. every other person there was either in a fraternity or sorority. I have to admit I felt left out. I think that's why people try so hard to fit in. it's nice to be part of something. I have always considered myself some what of loner. I always like to do my own thing. I do what I want and if anyone would like to join thats fine. I have found that there are some drawbacks with that mentality. Since I'm usually off on my own it's always been hard for me to open up to people. That's a big plus of being part of something, people are always there for you. There have been times where I was breaking down, and wished I had someone to talk about it with. I guess the thing I don't get is why people go to extreme lengths to try to fit in with everyone. To me that seem like an impossible task. I mean you can't please everyone. I don't get why people would go through putting themselves through pain and embarrassment to fit in with people who probably won't like them anyway.

.. I guess the point is sure it's great to be a part of something, but not it that thing is something that hurts you.