Critical Error

I hate feeling like I'm never good enough, but it's one of the only consistent feelings I have. They say you are your own worst critic. Whoever they are I thinks had me in mind when they came up with that statement. When you have an inner you with not but negativity, it's difficult to think you have any value. And so is the story of my life. I think that's why it's really hard to hurt me because I sure I've insulted myself 10000000000x harsher than anyone can, so it's like no big deal when some one makes fun of my intelligence(or lack there of), my height (most common one, real original), or my looks (which, again, really doesn't bother me because I don't think I'm much to look at). This feeling also keeps me up constantly and make sure I get little to no sleep, hence me writing this at 3 in the morning. It's the most frustrating thing to deal with, and it the one thing I cannot seem to overcome. I won't let myself and that seems like the biggest joke there is. I can't even enjoy the few compliments because I convince myself that they're not true and I don't deserve them. Even with my art, one of the hardest thing I have convincing myself I'm not good, I still have doubts with. I don't know it just sucks feeling like I'll never good enough and pretty much fail.